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Profile C.QIANLING, 120395 Nan Hua High Badminton "You don't choose people. If you're good, people will choose you. " — Mr Khoo KT Tagboard Exits Ash Charmaine Iris Jane Priscilla Ruiqi Xinyi Xinying Zhicheng Archives August 2008 September 2008 October 2008 November 2008 December 2008 January 2009 February 2009 March 2009 April 2009 May 2009 June 2009 July 2009 August 2009 September 2009 October 2009 November 2009 Music Credits ©Glamouresque.	Saturday, November 21, 2009 :D credits; __del* @ soompi + hongki a day. BUSY, BUSY, BUSY! FRIENDLIES, TRAININGS AND ALL. :D I seriously need catching up with old friends! And i mean quality time talking to them! :D Suddenly I realised I haven't been talking to them much. Primary school friends. 6a clique. 208 clique. Ash. Nich. Sec twos. Tswei. Sec fours! Busy busy, will not update this site regularly, who reads right! O.ooo okay :D Gotta sleep now! :D * I think some biantai always smoke in the middle of the night ! Grrr. Saturday, November 14, 2009 11TH-13TH NOV, in detail :D 11th Nov. - Decided to go friendly and head on to chalet only at night. In the end I chose badminton :/ Initially was going to have lunch with Mum, then Xinying called and in the end I had lunch with Xinying and Xinyi at CCK 302 place. Took a train to find them two. I had fish porridge for lunch (: Watched them talk over lunch about schools, exams, places, and the terrible oyster they tried to scare me with etc. I actually remained quite silent throughout, aye. Still thinking what happens after they both leave. Sometimes I wonder how much more time I have to spend with them.. I kept watching the auntie at the noodle stall pour the soy sauce (lol), then I realised, I don't know them that much after all. I should have known better.. Kept eating my fish porridge. Bid goodbye to Xinyi :( , and took a train the Clementi with Xinying (: Reached Clementi, waited for people. Xinying win already! She managed to persuade Jane to come! :D Haha, then she cabbed here, her hair flying away after her bath, haha+. Buddy and Sermin were late, sad, kept rushing them, but the bus they were on was so slow! In the end, Kieu and us had to leave without them. Sorry girls :/ We were delayed and late fro the friendly. Played TKGS BDiv Second doubles with Jane. I seriously screwed up, aye. Damn, I get so emotionally cocked up in the court that I don't even know what shit was I doing. Sorry Jane :/ Coach talked to us after that, crazy. I started crying, wtf. Ayeeeee, sigh. I'm weak, mentally and physcially weak. I'm a weakling, damnit. where have all the be-strong words gone to? I don't know. Am I stressed up or what? That should be the chance I'm happy for? And I actually screwed up? Now, screw me. Omg. Aye, then had a chat with alik. Thanks alik, for your words of encouragement. Told myself to buck up and braced myself for another match with Yaying. That match was actually better, perhaps I 'warmed-up' and got used to the court and all. I was more agile and calm after I composed my thoughts before the match. Yeah, it was a tie. Nice match yaying. Once again, sorry jane. *I realised, if I can't be up to that standard, should I just stop holding on and being a huge burden to others, rather than dragging others down with me, should I just let it go? :/ I don't know. :x After friendly, took the bus back to Clementi and trained back home with Xinying. after dinner, Dad sent me to chalet :D I stole 3 nougats to munch throughout the car journey to Pasir Ris, hah :D Reached the chalet, and called Ash. I kept thinking he was Dave! Lol, what happened to me, aye. Went into the chalet, Block L, 01 :D Nich said I was a bad daughter so I walked my mum out to gate heh, (: Played some card games and all, greeted the people and later on, 10pm +, Ash and Dave led nightwalk out. Kelly, Trixie, Jerlene, Iris, Nich, Juntat, Junlei, Bengkang were with them. We had this walk out to the narrow part of the Park, oh so dark and the sky looked as if it was going to rain, it looked red. o.o Iris and I were being high and we hooked arms with people. At first it was Iris, Nich, Me and Ash, then Ash went somewhere and only the 3 of us were left. We started talking and talking throughout the walk :D The part near the 'swamp' was scaryyy. Then all of us lost our way, and some unhappiness happened but all was well, Dave was right, we had time to talk throughout everything, that was bonding. Back at chalet, the rest went on to Macs for supper soon after midnight while Me, Ash, Iris, Dave stayed in the chalet to play card games. I kept losing my cards to iris during Snap, my reaction was freaking slowwwwww :/ Ash was super fast, he won the cards back for me, HAH. Iris was some idiot mad woman, who goes hysterical if she loses her cards. :D Then after the rest came back, four of us went Macs together with Trixie, Jerlene and Kelly. Ate McWings, and we chatted for some time. Saw 302 people there and talked to Shuanhock for awhile. After our meal we walked back and after sometime we went to the beahc to wait for the Sunrise, like 5am in the morning! In the end, the Sun rose in the other direction ( haha), we went back to chalet. Then Ihad a chat with Kester, I found someone with the same believes when I was young. Kesterchia and I had something in common! Know what, we both tried to think we have superpowers when we were young and we both sing in the bathroom (o.o). HAHA, guess what, we actually put the showerhead on our showers, wait for the water to flow down our hairs and try to deceive ourselves that we had water powers, omggggg. 12th Nov. 7am+, Ash, Iris, Kester and I went out to Macs for breakfast, again. I was almost sick of Macs! Had Mcgriddles :D Over breakfast, we talked about super powers again, woi Kester! haha. After breakfast, four of us roamed around E!Hub and we went to FairPrice to shop for the bbq stuffs and to see if anything the people needed. Here comes the funny thing. We were so high, we were like drunkards, in the NTUC, laughing like what? Me : 6 bottles, this is cheaper, yeah. 3 for $1.35. Go take a basket, this is heavy. Them : Okay. Me : *loads 6bottles into basket* Kester : *attempts to picks basket up, but falls on his butt LOL. * Ash + Iris + ME : *Laugheddd like mad* walking like drunkards and laughing like abcdefg!, people even stepped their own slippers, lol. Me : go take a trolley, woi. Very heavy. Sometone took the trolley and we bought many things, it was so funnyy. Me: *drunkard, high state* eh kester, the ham softsoft one, go change! Kester + Me : *walks over like mad ppl to ham section* Me : but everything also softsoft one! Kester + Me : *looks at each other and laugh like, zomg, rofl! Then the guys were like, : the trolley must have high class arrangement, they arranged the food neatly. And all of us were laughing at us taking the trolley, the food looked alot and expensive, then the 6bottles of water cost 3dollars plus. Zomg, so cheapo, and we pushed the trolley through the mart like little kids, ha ha ha. Loved that :D Returned to the chalet and unload the stuff, then waited for the people and went on to K-lunch with Priscilla, Regina, Joanne, Limhui, Huili, Ash , Jovin and Terence! Terence and Jovin then moved to the other room and we sing like maddddddd. We even pk-ed each other. Cling vs Clique! haha :D (L) Slacked around and went back to chalet, tried to start fire. Everyone was copperative, first time seeing our class so united in start the fire, everyone ere trying to help in fanning! :D food arrived, fire started and bbq started! :D Cooked, cooked, cooked. So on. Thanks people! :D Played ZhongJiMiMa, Ash and his bag of seasonings from Mac! Aww :D I got my karma, mixed alot, and in the end I got it. Ms Koh had to eat too! HAHA. then this lady came to scold us for the pit thing on the ground, and we had to clear it. Then the incident happened, poor Ash got injured, aye. Things happened, then after I bathe, everyone went in, only Nich and I stayed outside with Ash, Nich helped him with the wound and we talked. aye, they've grown alot throughout the two years, and I wonder what if next time I don't talked to them anymore.. ? Sad manzx. They're the closest guy classmates I have. Ayeeee. Everyone slept, and so on, till the next morning. 13th Nov. checked out, had Subway for brunch with clique, and heart to heart talk. Hoi, Kachang man! :D ha ha. I mixed alot of people together. This is crazyyyy, then neoprints, home!. :D - hongki. credits : as tagged + Miink@ftislandthaialnd+CNMK@soompi/PITeam I prefer Hongki's previous ahirstyle, when its longer, :/ You're Beautiful's getting damn exciting. I seriously hope its gonna finish airing in Korea soon and Singapore please, please import the DVD for sale over here. I've been watching videos on Hongki's live performances on Youtube, and I'm amazed by what he could do. Hongki's voice is good and definitely powerful. Ohhhh. C'mon, let the week pass fast enough for me to be watching episode 13/14 soon! :D I love viikii, they're fast. (: Next post shall be on chalet and friendly. Look up^ ( soon). After I bathe yeah. Tuesday, November 10, 2009 :'( hongki. - A . B . C . D . E. Training. Training. Sick. Getting better. Training. Find my way, find my way. Being frequently late for trainings, aye. I need to get motivated, come on. I must learn, learn how to control my emotions, aye. Hmm, sometimes I feel I'm a coward. I'm timid, I fear, I think too much. I worry for nothing. Don't you think so. I worry for my health. I complicate things. I panic and things mess up. Sometimes I wonder why people trust me. I don't even trust myself. This list could just go on forever. Hah, when I'm alone I think of many, many things. Why this, why that, lol. I'm slow, I'm weak, mentally and physcially, oh urgh. You know what I fear? I'm actually a braggart. Oh, determination and all. Beneathe everything I'm still scared, I fear. So? I got scared the other time over lunch with Regina at Lot one. How long had I not seen her? Like less than a week. We ran out of topics to talk about. Thats it, what? We actually ran out of things to say. The awkward silence frightens me. I got scared the day Coach mentioned about cdiv and bdiv at jurong west that day. He said he cares thats why he bothers to raise his voice at us during training so we could correct our mistakes. Then it left me wondering, what if I fall sick again. What about next year? What if I were to lose it again? What if at the end of the day everything I do doesn't help? I'm uncertain. What if I can't play well? Try, try so hard to savage this. What must I do to help further? What what what? My sense of direction? Give me a sense of assurance first, i need that assurance to know where I'm going. I'm weak. So mentally weak, damnit. 如果真的有一天做再多都无法弥补那遗憾了呢， 那该怎么办？失去了，得不回来又能怎么办？ 我还抱着那一丝的希望，但我想你想要的应该不是如此.....你到底懂不懂？你到底知道吗。你跑，　我追，很努力地追，还来得及吗？问题是，你好像离我越来越远。 我很乱。 - Chalet's tomorrow. Friendly tomorrow. I seriously hope my batch will buck up. Hopefully I can play tomorrow during friendly. Hoi, just forget about everybody and everything just play, they matter no more, just play! I try :/ Chalet, I hope it'll be fine. People might complain they dislike this or that but seriously, it isn't easy to organise. I hate it when they complain so much when they don't know a damn thing, urgh. I hope this doesn't happen again, let it be a wonderful 3D2N chalet. ayeeeee uncertain, how will the chalet be like? .. :/ Aye, currently listening to First Kiss/Always Be Mine - Ft Island, fagg, feel so sad, aye. " if I ever lose my power to fly, then your love takes me high. i'll always be true to you. sometimes i think i might lose it all, but the chances are small. Cause you hold me close, i feel you near, don't let go, say you'll always be here. " I haven't seen Jane. Iris. Ruonan. Secthrees. Dummy + Secfours, for quite some time... I actually cried the last time I saw Dummy in school. I was speechless to. I don't know what to say? Imagine crying while eating prata, lol. I miss people like abcdefghi. I miss school. I miss secfours. I think I should sleep now, everyone in the housewere already asleep for sometime. Yeap, chalet from 11-13th (: Will be back soon. Monday, November 9, 2009 - -DELETED MY PREVIOUS POST. - - HOW DID MY RUNNY NOSE RECOVER BY ITSELF. IT SEEMS LIKE I'M COUGHING! THEN I'M NOT :/ I cannto afford to fall sick manz :( I need to train, woiiii. Okay i need to sleep, training later. Mornings, people. *sleep face*
But baby, where they knock you down and out Is where you ought to stay